laziness makes me binge and watch dramas and get fucking fat . 

im going to get better. and im going to succeeed, and im going to change for the better because that is the only option. things CAN get worse but i’m already at the lowest so hopefully there is only UP now. 

i just want you to come back, and i want you back .. 

when you think you can’t sink any lower.

when you think things can’t get any worse. 

when you think you don’t have to worry anymore

when you think you don’t have to be nervous anymore

when you think the problem will get better

when you think your future will be bright

when you think something will change for the better

when you think you will get better

when you think you will mature

when you think you will stop

when you think about suicide

when you think this is the end

when you think no one cares

when you think your alone

when you think everyone is fake

when you think you bestfriend betrays you

when you think you will never have that again

when you think everything just fucking sucks fucking ass dick and balls and you just want to fucking bury your self alive because that will be better than living me life. when you think things can’t get any worse and it does. what the the FUCKKKKKNG ODDS of fucking that. i swear to fucking shit once you fall the only way is to get back up and once your at the bottom of the hill there is only up the hill but no … theres worse and theres hell and theres the grave and there it goes. my life just getting fucking closer to the center of the earth or some shit like that. what the fuck do i want from my self. too bad im not selfish, brave or dumb enought to kill my self. shittttt fuckkk fshshshitittt

why can’t you just fuck off and get out of my head , your one reason why i want time to go by so fast that i won’t even have time to think about you. why do you put that shit on your diary and shit when you don’t even mean. i don’t give a fuck if im being hypocritical because i’m not at the same time. why can’t you just get the fuck out of my head. you ruined my relationship with other people cause you make me think i still love you . i don’t fucking know dude just get the fuck away from me or do something that will be disgusted of you. im trying to fucking work rightnow and i can’t becasue your fucking bitch ass is pissing me off. why do you even bother with her when you said there wasn’t anything and you don’t even think you guys are freinds. i really don’t fuuuucking understand anyof this shit.your the least of my worries … yet you make me fucking think and shit what the fuck is your deal you fucking ass GHHHHOOLLLLEEEEE just go away please or you know………………………………………………..uhgal;dgjalkjgakljf you make me want to cry and ripp all the hair off my scaoskralkdfjalskdfjadfscalpsss